Hi peeps, it's the end of September and before we realise, Christmas could be around the corner again! The past 7 months were not easy for me in work... and three months ago, I finally handed in my resignation letter after much hesitation.. That wasn't an easy task at all because first of all, my boss didn't give me the blessing and question my rationale for not staying to the management level. She tore my resignation letter in front of me and I had to think of ways to hand in the resignation letter again with a reasonable explanation. I gave up the chance of becoming a manager in January next year and the bonus payout in February. Well, that could be my worst decision ever but I'm definitely not looking back anymore. I will just keep looking forward to the best times of my life. 23rd September 2016 was my last day in Co K. I joined Co K on 18 April 2011. I spent half the decade in this Co. I could just move on and get my promotion but I told myself that as much as I love the colleagues, I couldn't feel the sense of achievement and I felt that the job is meaningless sometimes. Yes, I do help with tax planning which could save millions of dollars or ringgit but to me personally, I just don't feel the job satisfaction. I'll be moving to internal audit, something to do with my previous background but with bigger responsibilities I presumed. I'm not so sure how it feels like anymore to work in a completely new environment. I was feeling very comfortable with my usual hangout colleagues and now that I will no longer see them everyday for lunch, I feel sad. We talked about everything without boundaries and that's what I like about them. I do hope that my new colleagues will be as nice and friendly as them.

On my last day with Co K, I stood firm with the decision to leave unlike two years ago where I made a last minute decision to transfer to tax dept from audit dept. I didn't regret my decision at all because I met a few great people in tax dept which I could call them as friends rather than colleagues. Sooner or later, everyone will leave and it's just a matter of time except that I left earlier. That day was an emotional day for me. I pretended that everything was fine and I thought I could still hold it but not until I read the farewell card. My tears started to flow as I read the card. I didn't know that my presence could be strongly felt. I am truly blessed in a way. I managed to take a picture with everyone including my boss. I felt sorry for her as I could no longer be at her service. She took me in initially with the intention of working under her directly for advisory projects. I still remember that day clearly where I met her for lunch at a premium Japanese restaurant with my audit partner. I got to know about her even better when I went for a business trip with her to Singapore. In a way, I didn't want to follow her footsteps although she's enjoying her successful career now. I am not a career minded person and I just want a comfortable life with a stable job which can feed my whole family. My definition of comfortable life is attending to at '9 to 5' job during weekday and spend time with my family. You may say that I have no ambition in life but I guess everyone has their own perspective on the meaning of life and will take responsibility to it. If I live up to everyone's expectation, will they be sorry for me and take up the responsibilities for making me live in a miserable life?

Well, I guess it's time for dinner and I shall leave now before my stomach acts up again...Tata